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Why I left Facebook….

If I were to write a letter to Facebook (lets pretend it is an actual person) explaining why I no longer have it in my life, this is what the letter would look like: (lol)

Dear Facebook,

I am deeply sorry for not returning, however, my life without you has been much better. I had originally  left Myspace for you because you had made my life much more easier and convenient. There were some good reasons for having you in my life. You encouraged me to keep in contact with family and reunite with old friends. I was able to save money on stamps and envelopes since I had the luxury of being able to send out group invitations for events. If I did not feel up to speaking with anyone, I could post a status so that people would know that I was still alive. I could show off my photography and keep people ” in the know” as to my every single move. Life was good.

Then, just like with any other relationship, things went sour.

You made me realize just  how much I was missing out on in life by simply reading other peoples’ statuses. You start to feel depressed when you see that your friends went to the Dominican Republic without you. Which makes you realize just how truly lame your life actually is because you are currently on Facebook (no offense) reading other people’s statuses while they are meeting hot Dominicans.

You were way too demanding. Too much of my time was spent being dedicated to you when I could have been doing other things. I was scared that it was turning into an addiction. You know you have a problem when you start Facebooking Stalking. (if anyone is reading this– you know you did it! you were a victim of Facebook stalking!! lol)

You also made me realize how many friends I did not have. After a little comparing and contrasting, you start to notice other people with 500 friends, and then you realize you only have 100, which starts to make you feel like a loser. But, hey, you reminded me of this everyday.

You were high maintenance. I could not understand why I had to keep you posted of my every move via status postings. Can we say demanding? This only encouraged stalkers to enter into my life. I mean, do people really need to know when I take a shower or walk my dog? Keeping up with the statuses were time consuming. Then you wanted me to “check in?” Wayyyyyy to take away all of my freedom.

I need consistency in my life, and you are not consistent. Trying to keep up with your new appearance was difficult to adjust to. Why couldn’t you just remain the same? Now my life had to be broken down into a timeline for you! Really? A timeline? no comment.

I think what made me truly end it with you, Facebook, was when you constantly threw it in my face when my friends were mad at me.  Once I logged on and saw that I was unfriended, it always made me furious.Especially when they got to do the unfriending first! Oh, the agony!  It seemed as though you took pride in that. I also could never understand why you always encouraged me to befriend every person who I have met throughout my entire life. I mean, really. Do I really need to become friends with my hairdresser? the mailman? I felt like I was constantly competing with other people as to who had more friends. So befriending anyone and everyone seemed like the cool way to make my friend circle bigger.

This pretty much sums up why I  can no longer have you in my life, my dearest Facebook. It was nice having you in my life while it lasted, but I am happy to have my privacy and freedom back. I am sure you will be fine since you have a million admirers. Maybe one day I will find it in my heart to reactivate.

Sincerely,

Jess

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Do what you love….

One of my fellow coworkers just recently quit her job teaching because she wants to do what she loves,to be a mom. We were all betting money that she would not come back since she took a year off. Then the news spread like wild-fire that she was no longer going to continue being an English teacher at our school. I kind of new that from the get-go. It is really not such a difficult choice.

On the outside, she seemed to be VERY happy teaching at our school.She was so happy that it made you wonder what you were doing incorrectly, and made you question whether or not teaching was the right career choice for you. She kind of made you feel unhuman or crazy because you actually showed that you were unhappy about a student telling you off, or ticked off at your supervisor and overwhelmed at times. However, looks can be deceiving.

Yes, on the outside, she seemed to be perfect, but a little too perfect. I knew that no one could be that perfect, and that behind that fake facade was really someone who hated her job. I knew it was just a matter of time. After she quit, I found out more about who she truly is as a person by reading her blog. It is strange how you can work with someone for years and know nothing about them, until you read their blog. Turns out that she DREADED teaching and started having anxiety about returning in September. It kind of gave me a piece of mind. I thought to myself…ok I am not crazy after all. It is the ones who act normal that are truly crazy!! SUCCESS!

She inspired me to pursue doing the things that I love. Since teaching is such a demanding and time consuming job, you have to dedicate A LOT of your time and you have the tendency to forget what is truly important in life.–Taking care of yourself and enjoying time with your family and friends, and most importantly.–doing the things that you love. My coworker now blogs daily, does photography, jogs, cuts hair, travels and hangs with her friends. Many of the things that I wish I could do too. Let me not forget…She even posted a picture of herself having drinks with her friends on Facebook! A major no-no for teachers. Heck, I have not been able to do that since college!

But to get to my point, I could never think about quitting my teaching job. I actually look forward to going in everyday and am very excited about teaching my “kids.”Yes, I consider them to be my children.

Although I love my teaching job, and cannot picture myself doing anything else, I have those days when I feel unappreciated and feel mentally abused so-to-speak. However, the good days, teachable moments and the reminders from students that you are a great teacher are what make my job worthwhile. Despite the fact that I cannot picture myself doing anything else, I have been feeling inspired to do what I love. I have a very creative mind and love, love, love to create things. I just wonder what would I be able to actually accomplish if I had the time to invest in creating more….becoming an entrepreneur.

I create bottle cap jewelry, knit, and do photography. I truly LOVE doing these things and, I wish that I could start my own business somehow…someway…someday. It truly is an investment of time ,and I am not sure if I am ready just yet to actually do what I love when I am still in love with my current position. I guess I will have to wait until I completely fall out of love with being a teacher to pursue my other love, but who knows how long that will be…. and who knows if that will ever really happen…. I guess we will have to wait and see….

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